I moved away thinking of me,
How much easier life would surely be.
I thought I knew what heaven would bring
Oh God, how naive of me.
At first glance, this city blazed bright,
The excitement lingered, filling the sky.
I feel so free, this must be it,
My spirit agrees: this life will fit.
Courageous spirit became my friend
No room for fears inside this game.
I loved the city and its lights,
Life is perfect, am I right?
People asked, “Why the move?”
I giggled shyly and flushed maroon.
Heaven had touched my heavy heart,
But now I’m burdened, being so far.
Three beeps, a click, then mama’s voice,
Her beauty travels through the phone.
We talk and laugh like nothing’s changed,
But years have kept us far apart.
Impulsive visits for us are banned,
Each meeting planned months ahead.
“If all goes well, I’ll see you soon,”
But the lights went out – the world shut down.
Tears on the screen fell heavier each time,
The dam cracked open, releasing its tide.
I dried my cheeks and forced a smile,
Wishing to be there, I pretend I’m alright.
Time returned, and they lifted the bars,
My name in gold on my boarding pass.
I pick up my phone and dial your name:
“Mom I’m landing, I’ll be right there”
Tears have dried, and I see the smiles
I’ve missed you all, can’t deny.
Two golden weeks of warmth inside,
But then it’s time to leave your side.
Back on the plane, I bit my lips,
The roaring ache had split me in bits.
I love the life I’ve built with might,
But damn the distance that killed my light.
Wide awake I wonder each night,
How choices I made have carved my life.
At twenty-one I knew it all,
But twenty-eight came with, “I know nothing at all”.
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